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| GAH!!! I'm tired of trying sooooo hard to make everyone around me happy,then just having it all blow up it my face and be hurt by some of the ppl I'm closest to...how can people hurt people they supposedly "love like a sister/brother" or whatever the hell you wanna say and just go so unnoticing? I give people so many chances and it seems like everyone I do they just screw up again purposely to smother it in my face...*sigh*....and how can people be so cruel to people they don't even know? For Bible study we're doing a project where we have to talk about the hardest thing we've ever had to go through, and my friend matt is talking about when he came out (he's gay) some guys at school beat the crap out of him, and he almost died but my friend jynx fought off the guys and pretty much saved his life...he got a severe concussion and was in a coma for 1 1/2 weeks, and he had to be held back cause he had some brain damage...and these people didn't even know him! Matts one of the nicest/most understanding guys I know and some guys beat him up because he likes guys...
*sighs* how can strangers be so cruel?
Then again how can the ones you love be so cruel and not seem to TRY to care?
.......I need a vacation.......
...That or a sick day with NO phone calls/visitors EXCEPT for the ones I allow...maybe then they'll try to care.....
Sorry I needed to vent and I really didn't wanna vent to anyone and since mandy n john are the only ones that get on hereeeee it felt appropriate. | | |
| Yupppp usual ppl check your comments!!!n mandy lemme kno when ya get round to readin my freakishly long comment!!!!
Mmkkkkkk I wanna talk bout friday night cause tha was one of the most emazing things EVER!!!!so we actually did have school friday (we didn't have school monday and tuesday cause schools close when its 10 below 0) and wednesday it closed cause of snow then we had a 2 hour delay thursday soooo yea I've been all thrown outta whack..but anyway so went to school, which was normal. Then after school I went to phillips house and we goofed off until like 5:45 and we left and went to the newport...it was FREEZING outside cause we were in a line that went a few blocks and all phillip n I had were our jackets and we stood out there for a good half hour cause the doors opened at 7:00 which is a half hour later than what I was told sooooo yea...then the concert started and this one band called thr dear and departed played and they were really good!! So gotta keep my eye on them..then sick of it all came on and I didn't really like their music soooo phillip n I jus kinda stood there gettin killed in the pit when they were on stage....then...around 10:00...AFI CAME ON AND PLAYED!!!!!! They are the most em-azing band I've ever seen live....phillip n I pretty much got killed in the pit, and I don't think I'm a virgin anymore cause we were all pinned together pretty much....and the rest of our group was smart and stayed out of the pit...so phillip n I left with concussions and all bruised up...and almost without shoes....but it was worth it....AFI sounds better live than on their cds....oh my GERSHNESS they were AMAZING!!!!!sooo yea...before the finished playin phillip n I left the pit and went to all the bands merch tables and I got the dear and departed bands members to sign a poster for me which made me happy =)...but yea...that was an amazin night and I got home round midnight from the concert....
Anddddd my next concert is gonna beee MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE W/MUSE!!!! Cause I'm buyin phillip n I tickets cuz guys really are impossible to shop for, and the tickets just went on salw saturday so I thought oh what the hell so thas what I'm gettin him...it was either that or tickets to go see cute is what we aim for playin with like 4 other bands I think...
Anywayzzzzz sorry I jus had to talk about it cause it was just THAT amazing yup yes it was....and I love phillip to death cause the AFI ticket was my birfday present....
I love my friends...
I love phillip....
I love my life....
I love YOU!!!!!
Wow I sound stoned maybe I should go to sleep now okie dokie buhbyeeeeee!!!!
<333333 Meepy | | |
| Mandt john n nate check your comments!!!!!
Anywayzzzz battle of the bands last night twas fun!!!! It went over time by an hour n a half so it went from 6:30pm to 2:30am oh boy!!!! Andddddd brandon got arrested for fighting with random strangers lol I love it cause he was askin for it....
Last night sammy jynx matt jason jax brett aiden damian mike dillan n zach determined the nickname for their group...they said they're my boys now since I'm the only girl that hangs out with them and I hang out with them everyday soooooo now they're my boys =) I lurve my boys <33333 soooooo yea AFI concert in less than a week, ehmmmmmm I dunno what else....
Sooo I'm going to play 4 wheeler dodgeball over at matts w/my boys...yup yup I'm prolly gonna die....
<333333 meepy | | |
| MANDY!!!! (U haven't made an entry on ur xanga so I have nothin to comment on) anywayz!! I haven't talked to ya in forever!! Yea... I did sorta disappear =P but I'm back!!! (Somewhat) so yea...wha happened with you n allz? I haven't talked to her in a longggggggg time....I think she mighta been mad at me last time I talked to her....*shrugs* I. Can't remember....anywayz make a post so we can talk!! (Aim and email don't work on this thing :( )
Oh yea john check your comments again =P | | |
| Hmmmm, I jus feel like writing random thoughts in here...
I had forgotten how much more emotional pain hurts than physical pain...and how the people you're closest to can hurt you so much more than complete strangers...
But ya kno what, I'm so willing to go through all of that cause I've seen and know how wonderful life can be..and I kno tha when you're goin thru hard times,there's always gotta be somethin better when you get through it...plus I have em-azing friends + boyfriend...I've been thru so much but I wouldn't go back for anything because..I dunno, I jus love it!!!!
Mmmmmmk my random happiness thought is done...buhbye
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